All morning this noise in my head telling me things like “you’re a bad mom, bad wife, you ruin everything” over and over.

My watch continues to alert me about my dangerously high heart rate, but I can’t seem to shake off these intrusive thoughts and overwhelming emotions.

I sit down and take 8 slow, deep breaths while reflecting on all the things I’m grateful for. I walk outside barefoot to literally ground myself. I turn on my comfort show.

The thoughts come back and I take those 8 deep breaths and think of my gratitudes again, and again, and again, over and over.

Today, it seems like I’ll be spending the entire day in a familiar way, as usual. However, writing this and expressing my thoughts feels like a release, and I’m grateful for that too.

Edit to add that I hadn’t taken my CBD/CBG/Ashwaganda capsule this morning. Feeling almost normal after taking it. ❤️

-Mike